The road is long and winding. Like a good mystery unfolding.

I'm not sure if i've ever been at a place in my life like this. I've heard people say that relationships don't take effort. The best are the easy ones. I never really knew what that meant because I'm kind of a crazy in love girl who is obsessed with relationships. But hey.. I think i've found a keeper here.

Last semester was a ton of work. Emotionally, physically, academically, everything. But the work was only because we were so far. Now that we're home. Settled. And enjoying (to some extent) our summers with and without eachother. I get it. I get the idea of being content. Just being. Being together. Its so easy. To know that he wont wake up in the morning feeling differently and I wont either. We trust and are trusted.

I think this means good things for me.

And again..

I just looked at the date on that entry...and had to convince myself it was right. I can't believe it. Its May 4th. Wow.

I'll find a way to you if it kills me

I've been living a semester off of time. How much time is left. How much we've done. How much I've spent talking. How much I've spent away.

I am sick of time.

But it haunts me. I'm constantly reminded from birth control to due dates to the little iCal icon on my desktop that reminds me of the date.

But the cool thing..is this time.. i'm writing positively. Knowing that four.. four short..crazy hectic and stressful days filled with pulling possible all nighters and studying.. but four days. He'll be here. In this bed with me. I'll never want to get on my computer again. I'll remember everything I forgot. I'll get this part of my heart back that I've been missing for so so long. My confidence will return. I won't cry again unless its happy tears of his arrival. I'll be smiling so much it's going to hurt.

Four days my friends. We made it. Somehow, you and I.. we did it. Lets do this thing right. Lets do it how it should have gone. I'm ready baby. Come grab my hand.