I didn't realize how hard this was going to be. God bless him because he's been incredible. I thought when he came home everything would be solved. We'd be just fine. Livin free. Well of course i'll take this to when he was abroad and MIA for most of my time 2nd semester but this tacked onto 4 months of distance. It just sucks. We'll have spent about 2/3 of our relationship apart. What is that? Why do I do that to myself? He's worth it. I know he is. I just wish it wasnt so hard. I'm tired of things being hard.
I want to be with my friends again. Getting drunk on Tuesday nights and waking up to my boys face every morning. I want to laugh in class with Carly and take the BT home to foxy and curl up on our fugly couches and watch a new movie.
I never thought college and my bburg fam would mean this much to me. But its seriously killing me to not be with them.
August cannot come sooner..
